2008 is Drawing Near...

The month of December 2007 is coming to an end...

Lots of things to ponder... Lots of wonderful, eventful memories that could put a smile on my face... Lots of woeful, forgetful memories that I wish would never occur in my lifetime.

December was full of ups and downs. Good swings and mood swings... It is as though, trying to recapitulate all your lfe in a year within a month... Let's hope that the final day of December does not turn into a "one whole year within a day"... Let's hope not.

One of the utmost eventful things that occur this month was My Mom's admission to the hospital. What was supposed to be a normal check up and observation for a couple of days turned out to be a prolonged experience, filled with sadness and tears. Mom was diagnosed with multiple viral infections that led to her skin being wholly affected, parts of her previously smooth skin was peeling to pieces, turning to dark red and spots of black precisely on the main parts of the body and faces.

I had never seen my mom is such a condition before. It shocked me to bits when the Doctors told me that she had contracted at the very least 3 viruses from her on-going medication and observation spell at the hospital.

Her back sores have turned from bad to worse. It looked like a huge crator had crept on her back.

New Found Addiction

Strange but true...

I have never thought that I would be getting myself indulged in Friendster or Facebook. NEVER.

But then again, I was wrong. Lesson learnt. Never admit that you will never get your hands onto something that you SO DO NOT WANT... life is such that the opposites usually occur. Sometimes, most of the times, they happen beyond your comprehension and expectations.

I got hooked and persuaded by my wife, Aidee, who was introduced to "that new world of networking" via her close buddies (locally & overseas) - a seamless and easier way to get connected and updated at an instant.

The truth - I have never been a big fan of Chatting, IRC or whatever they were back then. Hence, I never wanted to get myself entangle to whatever it is now, although from what I heard initially Facebook and Friendster worked their charms through many "thick walls". The gazillion facets and features in Facebook for e.g. caught many people's attention and grabbed them by the throat, leading to many spending much of their time at home or at work facing the fizzles of Facebook or Friendster.

I have just started. And what hooked me to Facebook (much more than Friendster) in particular is that there are many interesting Trivias we can opt to choose and attempt. And I am a sucker for Trivias and Quizzes. So there goes...

Let us wait and see how far and how prolonged this craze will be...

I wanted to continue writing regularly on my Blogs, but in the end, Regularity comes once too Seldom...

22 October 2007

Have you ever felt strange and hugely affected after ONE PARTICULAR unexpected incident that occurred out of the blue? Something that was so unexpected that it caused you to continuously ponder upon yourself, your health, your family and your well being. Well, mine just happened about three days ago...

It was on a Monday morning. And it was on the 10th day of Syawal, when everybody was still in the colourful mood of Eid ul Fitri.

I received a phone call early in the morning from an irregular caller - a College friend of mine, Adri, who hardly ever calls, unless he was inviting me for a Game of Futsal (which only happened once in a blue moon) or an Open House (which for all I know, in his capacity, has always been a yearly affair). It struck me as a surprise initially. So when I returned his call, indeed he was inviting me for an Open House on Saturday (as expected).

But another news took me mild by surprise.

An old College friend of mine had just passed away in his sleep that morning. An old classmate, as a matter of fact, who I last met during the SPM Results in 1994.

Such a sad demise. Missing an old colleague in such a manner. Such a tragic incident that must have befallen his beloved family (of a wife and 4 kids). How would she (the wife) have felt at the point of his passing? How would she take it from this point onwards? How would the bigger kids bear the fact of life without the father? I imagined those as I imagined myself in his shoes, leaving my lovely wife, Aidee, and my son, Adam... should God decide to take my life away.

The truth of the matter is, that incident, although I was not in town to witness it, altered my perception of life. Initially it became quite a nightmare for me to bear, having had troubles in closing my eyes to sleep wondering what would happen to me when I wake up the next morning. And when I did wake up, I would always be covered with sweat. Feeling and breathing a sigh of relief. Thanking God as ever for allowing me an additional day to live, and be with my beloved ones. It was indeed tumultuos and hazardous knowing that such a friend, of the same age (and all fit and healthy) could just leave you within seconds.

Nevertheless, later, that similar incident became a catalyst for my wanting to get things done before I die. It sort of pushes me to the brink of wanting to ensure that should I go without a warning, my family would be safe, secured and comfortable with what I had left them with. And should I depart, there would be much of me left as part of my legacy, if not for others to follow, at least for others to remember and treasure.

I realized my life, though as colourful as I thought it was, may not mount to a hill of beans in this crazy world. But at the very least, I strongly believe that whatever we do affects other people in a certain kind of way. If not much, at least a little.

Bit by bit, I am convinced that all of us has a fair share on this earth, a role to play, knowledge to impart, experience to share, and thoughts to express. It is just a matter of magnitude and circumstances.

This is my life. This is my forte. And this is my expression...